I think about the things i doThe sacrifices i make
The hours lost
The times spent
I think about all the above
And i think about the way my children behave when im home
How they all want to talk to me at once
They all want my attention
How they missed me
I think about that and i think about my wife
I think about our arrangement
This wasnt the deal
I wasnt supposed to leave her behind with all of the responsibilities of parenthood.
I think about that & i wonder
Is this all worth it?
Will the result be somewhat important for my children?
For my family?
Will my accomplishments be just like a trophy?
With no purpose other than to be the reminder of how good i used to be.
Will i have an impact
For my family
Will i matter?
Will it matter?
I think, still
Until i find the answer, all this questions are bitter pills