Before my fingers starts to hit these keys, i was wonderin around the city alone. I felt like i wanted to eat “something american”. Not knowing what to do, i returned 5 dvd’s that i rented, and wonder off tryin to figure out what i wanted to eat.
But the best part of this strange tale is, all along that journey… i was talkin to myself NONSTOP. I didnt stop AT ALL untill my head (which is moving partly from my mouth) figured that i didnt want rice for dinner instead i wanted CHeeseBurger, Fillet O Fish, Soda, French Fries, and 2 Chickens.
Eventually in front of this monitor i ate:
BIGMAC, SODA (a tall one) LARGE FRIES, and 2 CHICKENS
Now, i am as full as Noah’s Arc
Suddenly i remembered this Quote i got from Gothica. Halle Berry’s late suspenseful movie.
Never thought i’d found a good quote from such movie.
Anyway it said
“Repressing feeling is a must have. It differs us from Sane to Insane.”
Or sumthing like that. What it meant was Repressing what we hv in mind is actually important. Because otherwise we’d be like all those sorry ass Crazy people wondering around this city.
They fail to repress their feelings and problems inside.
What went out was something horrofying.
They went bezerk.
So on normal basis, if we cant hold down our emotions (of course better it be the bad ones) we are not so much different from Crazy People.
I had this “thing” early on today.
Someone told the BIGGEST LIE i have ever heard.
I asked that someone 3 times to be sure
Still, he lied
I wanted to Hit hard by opening that STUPID lie.
Oh how i wish i tore down his lies coz i am tired of being lied and making him think that all of us are stupid
But then again… “Repressing feeling is a must have. It differs us from Sane to Insane.”
i am human being. I have been blessed with the ability to tell what is right from wrong
I realize that even though he did bad, doesnt mean it’s right for me to do something with that same level.
I chose to be sane.
I promise my self not to whine about it anymore.
Let him deal with his sins
Another example. This afternoon i had a problem with my previous blog account.
The error is unbareable i decided not to took care of it.
Instead of making another account i went down on it and make myself being washed out.
I need my girl to be sane
That is the truth
She helped me get a grip on reality and in life
today without her i felt very lost.
It took me 3 hours to get myself to make another account.
Now, i say goodbye to pandji.blogspot.com
i am not gonna go back.
Still i need this Blog thing. I am a messed up man with a messed up mind
I have a lot of things to say but i dont feel like telling it to people.
After dawn i lose my mood to talk. Maybe my concious tells me to keep myself intact and hold my breath for tomorrow. I need it for GMHR
I need to make my listener happy, want to
I want to make them fresh in the morning
all because i like to do it.
I like to make people happy
Back to what said before, i need to tell people what i have in mind.
Or bury it deep.
Either way, my lovely Gamila is my only answer.
How i miss her today
Those Garutian is having a Ball with her over there.
Its okay tho.. i dont mind
i know she’s mine
So here i am writing what i have in mind in this blog thing
Im almost done
at least for this one
Its just Another Everyday for me…
I’ll see you tomorrow or Tonight
i dont knowm we’ll see…