The wonders of life, and death…

Couple of days a go, a friend of mine juts lost his dad

When i arrived at his house to mourn i met the guys from University

i concure,

“Someone’s Death is Someone elses Reunion”

Gamila said “Death is the cheapest form of Reunion”

Ginting said “Death is an event that could form a commitee in the fastest way”

You see, there’s life in death after all.

My friend’s house became warm with reminiscing our past

Laughters blew and quickly became the warmth needed by the cold mourned home.

Some are still the same, some changed. MOstly on the physical part

The guys met me and said, “Fat Mutherfucker!”


We still have the same stories, same jokes, same mocks

In a brief episode of such reunion i had it all

Happy, Sad, even Mad. I lil insulted but that’s just the way we are

If i showed changes i had in me they wouldnt accept it.

Not right away anways

But it’s cool

I changed and i think they saw it a lil in me…

“Someone’s Death is Someone elses Reunion”

Well, i just hope i dont have to see someone else died to get another reunion


I just watched Men Of Honors for the 3rd time on my DVD

God i loved it.

I Love those kind of movies

Men Of Honors, Radio, ALI, Jerry Maguiere, Any Given Sunday, 8 Mile, A Few Good Man, even Allen Iverson’s vidoe “The Answer”.

Each and every movie i mention above, has 1 thing in common.

They FOUGHT their way to reach the top, they once fell but never fainted. They got up and finished the game. They Succeed.

Especially Men Of HOnors, 8 Mile and ALI, they had a soundtrack that always burns me with passion and desire to win

8 Mile has LOSE YOURSELF from Eminem


and Men Of HOnors has WIN from Brian Mc Knight.

Here’s my favourite line…

“So i’ll never give up, Neve give in, Never let a ray of Doubt slip in

and if i fall, i’ll never faint. I’ll just get up and try again.

Never lose hope, never lose faith. There’s much to much at stake.

Upon myslef i must depend. Im not looking a place or show…

Im gonna Win”

I think i am very sick…

My Right Back, Whole Right Arm, My Hip, My Chest is aching

God it hurts if i think of it.

Im sweating and i dont know why

Myhead is spinning around

My stomach is, like its swollen

Its filled with gas

Its hurting me

I feel like i dont have energy even to walk

I called GAmila…

She was playing Basketball in a school there at Garut with her friends

She looks very happy

I cant tell her how sick i am right now

Last night before we parted she cried

She cried telling me how sad she is watching me sick like this

I cant make her sad

Not when she’s there and im here

Not when she and i knows that i have to go to Surabaya and Shoot a couple more episodes for CRUSHBONE. NOt when she knows i pushed my self lastnight at Hyatt on this MC Jazz thingy. I had to perform coz i signed on it.

Get back here on Monday, work as usual.

On Tuesday August 17th i’d be doing another MC job at BSM

August 22nd MC at SABUGA

August 28-29 MC at SPortakuler (on confirmation)

All that and i had turned down 3 MC Jobs.

Come to think of it..


I got lots of it…

Man i gotta write all those down on my CV.

Gonna look good one day.

HAha temporarely Pre Occupied

Now im back remembering how sick i am

and how This MOnth is gonna be a RollerCoaster

Living OutLOud…

There’s this song that is so inspiring to me

Sung by the late great Sammy Davis Jr. something called “A lot of Living”

One part of the song says…

“You’re Alive, so Why dont you Show it?”

When you know that there are Billions of People all around the world

With such short time of Living

YOu’ll think that you might wanna pull urslef a little bit higher from the rest of the herds

The point is this. Quote says,

“You’re Alive, so Why dont you Show it?”

So if you do not SHOW yourself, how would you expect people to know your alive?

People would see and feel ur existence if they know that you’re alive.

So from this day on, show urself

Be distinctive, make people see you

There are lots of ways achieve that.

You can look different

Think Different

Act Different

Sing Different

Ball Different

Just be Different

And be comfortable with it

“You’re Alive, so Why dont you Show it?”

Seasonal Partnerships…

At times, people come and go.

What can you do to prevent it?


What can you do for it?

Not sure

What can you do about it?

In life there are people passing by

Some had smiles along the way

Some displays hatred and anger

Some even fear

The time you spent with them is the one you cant have

The echo of their existence in your life is immortal

It stays forever like the Stonehenge

Why do we fear goodbyes?

Why people regret that?

Cant they see that it is part of a huge phenomena fitted into 1 small word


Why cant people accept someone elses departure.

Is it because they’ll miss it?

Isnt it overrated?

Sooner or Later they’d get over it anyway.

It’s only a matter of time.


Once you think of it, you’d realize that you’ll spent ur energy on useless things

Why cant people accept someone elses departure.

Is it because of theyre worry of the abscence?

The abscence may lead to a hole.

again, Isnt it overrated?

We have no other choice and no other thing to do.

Sad or Not

We have to figure out a solution

Only that if we’re emotionally stable, Then we can find a solution

We’ll do it with clear thoughts

Smarter solutions Pops Up

Why cant people accept someone elses departure.

Is it because they’ll never gonna see em again?

And again, Isnt it overrated?

Its not like they’re DEAD or anything…

At times, people come and go.

What can you do to prevent it?


What can you do for it?

Not sure

What can you do about it?

Deal with it

It happened and still gonna happen again in the future

There’s nothing you can do about it

Smile about it

Breathe easy

its only something that’s often called in the office life as

Seasonal Partnerships


Rebel Without a Cause…

… is a title from a Movie featured James Dean.

Everybody has a Rebel within.

Heck, we even need to be Rebellious from time to time.

Rebel is very human. Rebel is necesseties.

Imagine how many people are there in the world

How many Nations

How many Governments

Imagine how many Culture

How many habits

How many social life

Imagine how many Rules

How Many Regulations

How Many Law

Law and Regulations are made for a sole purpose.

To push forward the needs of others.

To put the People ahead of all individuals

Now Imagine you. Alone standing in this world

Full of other people

and Full of Laws and Regulations

It’s stressfull

Because Forever we are forced to put other people needs ahead of us

Forever we have to think that others are more important than us

Forever we will think less of ourselves

That is why, there are times when we should put ourselves ahead of others

Have care for ourselves

Think of ourselves then think about the rest

Find out what we need for ourselves


Even though in order to do so, we have to break rules

Break culture

be Rebellious

Details more to come …

God !!!

God My Right Back HUrts Like HELL!!

For reasons i dont know for sure

Nothing i did helps!

Anyway, just posting journal.

I got a new mc contract. For the 1st time i’d be doing an MC job for a Jazz Event


Sounds Cool huh? Though it doesnt pay much but the Side deal i have and the 1st chance to work at Hyatt is quite profitable…

Thanks to this job, I Finally have a surprise for Mila on our 1st ever Anniversary

I cant wait


Beautiful Pictures to Take Home…

On this Romantic Drama Movie called “Meet Joe Black” there’s a good quote. It says,

“Life is like a vacation. You go there, have fun, and hope that you have some Beautiful Pictures for you to take home. But you cant live there forever. At times, you have to come home”

or, sumthin’ like that…

I ask my self what do i want to see in those pictures…

What is my definiton of Beautiful Pictures

What is it in life that i seek

That when i reached them i could say

“i dont want anything else” (this is also a quote from “Meet Joe Black” said by Anthony Hopkins.

I want

I want, to see myself 70 yrs old. Living in a place, not Indonesia.

By then, the country would be too small for me and myoversized ego.

Maybe New York

A huge huge city that always has something new to know about.

Always something new to tell

A huge city with huge population

A huge city with huge stories

Huge Numbers of Culture

I wanna be seen by people at this certain coffee shop i always go to.

sitting at my favourite place

Always there at my favourite hour

I wanna be seen walkin every morning walkin my dog, grabbin’ my favourite newspaper and an edition of Newsweek, Fortune or maybe Business Week and still hoping to see my Company inside em 🙂

I wanna have my own favourite Chineese Food

Wanna go to the same place to shop groceries

I wanna still e mail my son whose running my business now in Bandung and the rest of Indonesia

Business is great, getting all accross the country. It became one of the leading local sport clothing.

I wanna still call my daughter, my bright and lovely daughter. I trust her in whatever she does. Her intellegence reminds me of her mother. I can place my eyes somewhere else and not having doubts

I wanna go home to my small house where my wife awaits.

She’ll always has something to talk about

We’d never be bored

Sometimes she cooks, sometimes she asks me to go out and Dine in somewhere new

She’ll always find a new place to dine.

New York will never run out of place to go out to

Place to Dine in

I’d still contact my friends

and tell them whenever they ask where i am with the same answer

“Well you know, im still here, New York City”


The Need to be Alone and to Stay that way…

I bet it’s great to be Adam.

He wonders alone, needs not to talk to people.

and fake sayings in order to maintain others feeling.

Coz sometimes we say things we didnt mean to.

Suddenly mistakes are taken seriously buy people.

Even if he needs to talk, he’d talk to the sky, leaves, himself and maybe to God

I bet his closeness to God is unmatched by anybody.

He didnt have divergens like Friendster, TV’s, Box Office Movies, Worldwide Franchisers, woman, women, more women, Ragnarok, Rock N Roll, etc.

Its only him and God.

I bet it’s great to be Adam.

He can be alone and not having worries about others who are offended by his solitude

He can be alone and not getting the word “Introvert”

He doesnt lie, doesnt fake, for it has no needs

The Need to be alone is neglected by people

Nowadays, there are no Privacy

Mankind doesnt want privacy!

Imagine that

They open all access towards them

Some might think im one of those kind

That’s why at times i need to be alone they wondered why…

I like being alone. I like to have this page all by myself

I’ve been displaying all the skeletons in my closet there are times i need to have secrets

If you’re reading this.

Youre not wanted.

I bet it’s great for Adam to have Eve.

He has the Whole World to share

Split in 2

No more

They can spill conversations from dawn, morning, noon, afternoon, midnight, dusk, dawn…

They dont have to hide feelings and fake only to make other people feel good

So they wont be pissed off from Adam and Eve’s Public Display of Affection

Of course it wouldnt be public anymore since there are only Adam and Eve.

No need for time

Time’s pressence is formality